My Adventure's Begin .....

October 30, 2012

Who's going to say it first? Let me do it. Will sound more comfortable when ourself that drives us to tell an important thing and little bit ….. you know?

Met and fell in love, it has never had to me. "Come on, at the age of 26?" That's not possible. But it's true, even I don’t know why. 

Courtship? Of course once. But I think it's just a date, not love as 'it'. It is hard to tell the difference, they both make us comfort, it's just ... 'they say love is a different flavor', not just convenient, hahaha ... more details it's hard to explain.

If we discuss to define the word 'love', can be a day ... and not necessarily complete. Five letter that has the power for change the world. Sounds great ya ... of course, and sometimes in my ear it’s little bit creepy.

Let's start? Well ... this will be a bit tricky, but interesting ...

It begins with our separation (strange isn't it?, usually we start everything with the meeting, but this time I'm talking 'farewell' ... don't tell me there was something wrong with me, okay? Because I dion't like it). I was too young to know exactly what he meant when he said "this must end". And I feel, we are fine. We spend more time having fun than the fight. He never stopped worrying when I don’t  call him for more than 5 hours. And I'm always happy when he filled my house with my favorite flowers every Wednesday afternoon ... Or upload a special poem for me on facebook. When in kiss after dinner and or say goodnight. Everything went perfect ... But that day 'he still wanted to split'. Feeling lost, of course ... but I didn’t cry, and it was very strange for me. Because the next time I find myself going out with different men, and then split after five months to meet another man. But of all that no one made me feel completely lost or even really have something.

I live my life like a light without a load. When should meet, together, split up with someone. I think it's just a phase routine that will always happen in life. And I don’t really care how it feels. It's feel empty. Hahaha ... maybe,,,,

And now I'm getting bored, and like turning back in my teen age. I started my search, what one would really I want and Need. Something that makes me cry when get it and cried harder when lost. 

And today i'm going to start all of this, right now ....